Oh- I was just reading the comments on the blog... this one is for you, Mandy. (She wants an update on the awkward date a few weeks ago). You haven't received an update because there hasn't been a "date" or an "update". Once again... no "date" in this girls life. :) But, thanks for asking!
PS: Sorry for the double post earlier.
Tuesday, February 21, 2006
Marathon
Have you ever run a marathon? I haven't either, but lately that has been the analogy I have used to describe my life. I feel like I'm running a marathon but hadn't been training for it. See, I took a new job about 2 weeks ago and though I like it the pace is much faster than what i was used to the past 2 years. It's one of those jobs (as are many) where every person you deal with thinks that the universe revolves around them. Never mind the calendar, the clock, previous appointments, or lunch ---they want what they want, when they want it. And, me in my sick, distorted way have been trying to accomadate them one by one - only all at the same time. Does that make sense?
I'm learning a new job and I know that takes time, but I have this little problem called "inability to relax". Until I "have it figured out" I feel like I'm running the marathon, if you will, but haven't trained enough to know how to pace myself, or what to do to recover when I start to feel drained.
Thank God for anti-anxiety meds! I just wish they didn't take 6 weeks to start working. (Yeah, I work with the mentally ill and have a small element of my own.) Who doesn't? :)
I'm sure it'll get better - I mean that is what everyone is telling me. I guess I'll trust them and just keep on running the race.
I'm learning a new job and I know that takes time, but I have this little problem called "inability to relax". Until I "have it figured out" I feel like I'm running the marathon, if you will, but haven't trained enough to know how to pace myself, or what to do to recover when I start to feel drained.
Thank God for anti-anxiety meds! I just wish they didn't take 6 weeks to start working. (Yeah, I work with the mentally ill and have a small element of my own.) Who doesn't? :)
I'm sure it'll get better - I mean that is what everyone is telling me. I guess I'll trust them and just keep on running the race.
Marathon
Have you ever run a marathon? I haven't either, but lately that has been the analogy I have used to describe my life. I feel like I'm running a marathon but hadn't been training for it. See, I took a new job about 2 weeks ago and though I like it the pace is much faster than what i was used to the past 2 years. It's one of those jobs (as are many) where every person you deal with thinks that the universe revolves around them. Never mind the calendar, the clock, previous appointments, or lunch ---they want what they want, when they want it. And, me in my sick, distorted way have been trying to accomadate them one by one - only all at the same time. Does that make sense?
I'm learning a new job and I know that takes time, but I have this little problem called "inability to relax". Until I "have it figured out" I feel like I'm running the marathon, if you will, but haven't trained enough to know how to pace myself, or what to do to recover when I start to feel drained.
Thank God for anti-anxiety meds! I just wish they didn't take 6 weeks to start working. (Yeah, I work with the mentally ill and have a small element of my own.) Who doesn't? :)
I'm sure it'll get better - I mean that is what everyone is telling me. I guess I'll trust them and just keep on running the race.
I'm learning a new job and I know that takes time, but I have this little problem called "inability to relax". Until I "have it figured out" I feel like I'm running the marathon, if you will, but haven't trained enough to know how to pace myself, or what to do to recover when I start to feel drained.
Thank God for anti-anxiety meds! I just wish they didn't take 6 weeks to start working. (Yeah, I work with the mentally ill and have a small element of my own.) Who doesn't? :)
I'm sure it'll get better - I mean that is what everyone is telling me. I guess I'll trust them and just keep on running the race.
Saturday, February 18, 2006
snowy saturday
So, I open my eyes this AM and I think "it seems awfully bright in here"... then just as I did when I was in elementary school, I peered out the window to see the snow. A soft, thin blanket of snow covered the ground --- in IL we would call it a "dusting" but here in Nashville - it was chaos. Classes were closed, games were cancelled and people were spending the day hybernating in their homes. Smart, for sure, if you've ever seen the way Nashvillians drive. I, like a kid, longing for a snow day was ecstatic when I found out that I wasn't going to have to go the gym and coach my 4th grade girls bb team. It's fun, but we're having a losing season and well... I just didn't want to go today. So, I made some hot chocolate and curled up on the couch to read a book. Sounds good, doesn't it? Ah, don't get too excited - my to do list had been made so I couldn't relax. I was up, showered and out the door within the hour.
I drove around on slushy streets, deliberatly executing a safe skid around a few turns. And for a few minutes, I missed the cold winters of Illinois and longed for a winter trip to MN, as we used to do to visit my uncle. And then reality hit... I had to get out of the warm car and run the errands. And quickly I was reminded of why I moved to TN in the first place; mild winters. But the snowy saturday was comforting in a cold, bitter sort of way. It was the recurrence of something familiar; a catalyst for memories tucked away... and the memories made the cold, snowy Saturday much warmer. I hope it snows tomorrow.
I drove around on slushy streets, deliberatly executing a safe skid around a few turns. And for a few minutes, I missed the cold winters of Illinois and longed for a winter trip to MN, as we used to do to visit my uncle. And then reality hit... I had to get out of the warm car and run the errands. And quickly I was reminded of why I moved to TN in the first place; mild winters. But the snowy saturday was comforting in a cold, bitter sort of way. It was the recurrence of something familiar; a catalyst for memories tucked away... and the memories made the cold, snowy Saturday much warmer. I hope it snows tomorrow.
Friday, February 17, 2006
Well, another week gone by ... it's been a good week. I'm still getting accustomed to my new job and all the in's and out's of working with the homeless population. Few things will humble you more than to meet a homeless person, hear their story, and realize any and all of us at any point of time could be a decision or circumstance away from being in their shoes. It's pretty amazing and makes me very grateful for the roof over my head, the food in the fridge and the money (beit ever so little) in the bank.
It's a firm reminder that its all a blessing --- I am no more deserving than any one of the people I serve--- and I shouldn't take it for granted. So, I have little to say today except --- be grateful! And take care of what you have!
It's a firm reminder that its all a blessing --- I am no more deserving than any one of the people I serve--- and I shouldn't take it for granted. So, I have little to say today except --- be grateful! And take care of what you have!
Thursday, February 09, 2006
Job and Jaxon
Well, it's lunch time and I'm anything but hungry. Though, I have been going hard all day long. Do you ever work so hard and long that eating just sort of slips your mind? I do it... not often enough, as evidenced by my jean size.
I started my new job this week. It's been good, but extremely busy. Monday through yesterday was spent "in the field" as we call it, meeting contacts from our referral agencies. That was all good; though I was exhausted by the end of the day due to having to "be on" all day. The older I get the more I recognize I am an introvert. Some of you who know me may beg to differ, but that is - because you know me. My preference most days is to stay quiet and to myself. Ask Karla, whom I went to a Super Bowl party with; only to be found upstairs in a room pretty much by myself, midway through the second quarter. I like people, no doubt. And good thing, 'cause I work with them everyday. But I find my energy source is definitely not fed through being with people.
Back to the job thing... it's good. Though today has been spent sifting through piles of clutter and other people's mess. And again, if you know me at all, you know that clutter ---well, I despise it. If it were up to me, I would haul the whole mess back to the dumpster and let the fine Nashville Trash Company pick it up. But, I have been asked to sift through it and determine what needs to go and what needs to stay. Again, I don't like cleaning up my own mess let alone someone elses'. (Okay... so you caught me venting a little.)
Let's talk about something fun and exciting... my sweet friends Mark and Michelle are now proud parents of Jaxon You-An McKinney! They have been parents for awhile now, but finally got to hold the little man yesterday after arriving in Taiwan. If you think of it; I'd ask you to pray for Mark and Michelle. Specifically that Michelle would feel better... she had been pretty sick before arriving in Taiwan. And, of course, that the Lord would lead them in parenting this beautiful little boy. Thanks...
And now I am happy again. Who cares that I have junk to sift through...it's all relative.
I started my new job this week. It's been good, but extremely busy. Monday through yesterday was spent "in the field" as we call it, meeting contacts from our referral agencies. That was all good; though I was exhausted by the end of the day due to having to "be on" all day. The older I get the more I recognize I am an introvert. Some of you who know me may beg to differ, but that is - because you know me. My preference most days is to stay quiet and to myself. Ask Karla, whom I went to a Super Bowl party with; only to be found upstairs in a room pretty much by myself, midway through the second quarter. I like people, no doubt. And good thing, 'cause I work with them everyday. But I find my energy source is definitely not fed through being with people.
Back to the job thing... it's good. Though today has been spent sifting through piles of clutter and other people's mess. And again, if you know me at all, you know that clutter ---well, I despise it. If it were up to me, I would haul the whole mess back to the dumpster and let the fine Nashville Trash Company pick it up. But, I have been asked to sift through it and determine what needs to go and what needs to stay. Again, I don't like cleaning up my own mess let alone someone elses'. (Okay... so you caught me venting a little.)
Let's talk about something fun and exciting... my sweet friends Mark and Michelle are now proud parents of Jaxon You-An McKinney! They have been parents for awhile now, but finally got to hold the little man yesterday after arriving in Taiwan. If you think of it; I'd ask you to pray for Mark and Michelle. Specifically that Michelle would feel better... she had been pretty sick before arriving in Taiwan. And, of course, that the Lord would lead them in parenting this beautiful little boy. Thanks...
And now I am happy again. Who cares that I have junk to sift through...it's all relative.
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